Dear Friends,

Some of you may have wondered where I have been for the last few months. I have thought about connecting with all of you so many times. However, my heart and body were distracted with the care of my sweet Waldo, my 6 ½ year old Australian Shepherd, and my sweet Sierra, my 19 ½ year old kitty. I thought about what I could I share with all of you regarding this journey over the last three months that started with my sweet dog coughing and becoming more ill as the weeks progressed or what could I share with you about my lovely wise Sierra when she took a turn for the worse at the end of January.

My heart during these months was heavy, but open, my mind anxious. I vowed to myself I would stay present for these beings completely for whatever time they had left on this earth. Sierra had lived a long life, I knew her days were numbered. For Waldo, I kept hope as a vigil in my heart that we would figure out how to help him get better and live a long full life. I remembered my journey with my sweet dog, 3 years prior. I was not able to stay present fully with him during his last three months of life.  I was filled with a deep anxiety that left me no peace with any decisions I made for him.  I knew my anxiety affected his final days and I vowed I would not allow my anxiety to create more challenges for a loved one in the future when I was there to be of service

This time, I was given not just one chance to fulfill this vow I took to stay present, but two chances, and both at the same time. For Waldo, the decisions I made were difficult.  However, I kept my anxiety at bay so I could stay in a place of hope and healing for him. With Sierra, I chose to take several days off from work to just hold her and be with her, sing to her and love her. She rallied on several occasions, always amazing me with the continued power of her love of life and love of this family. With Waldo, I was able to stay present when he labored with his breathing, enough so that I could lay my hands on him channeling love so powerful that my hands burned. Within seconds every single time, his breathing eased and he would fall asleep.

Little did I know the healing I provided Waldo, was only to ease his discomfort. And the healing that I shared with Sierra, the same powerful flow of love, would help perk her up to give her several more weeks of life. My dearest Waldo passed away on 2/27/19 and my lovely Sierra soon followed on 3/16/19.

The day before Waldo passed, I had a dream in which a teacher came to me and told me that my greatest asset was my vulnerability. Little did I realize that during the next few weeks, I would feel completely vulnerable at the loss of my 2 treasured family members. Waldo’s soul made the decision to leave this earth on his own and in his own way. He passed while at the animal hospital away from my loving embrace but held in my loving heart, wearing the scarf I left for him with my scent on it. Sierra had a more difficult time leaving. She had been in her body for so long, I believe she temporarily forgot how to make her transition and resisted.

On Thursday evening, two nights before Sierra made her journey over the rainbow bridge, she had what was most likely a stroke. This left her unable to walk, completely incontinent, and extremely lethargic. I knew this was the end for this sweet girl in her body, and so prayed that she would leave her body on her own accord. However, I also made an appointment to have the veterinarian come to my house on Saturday, late am, just in case she needed some help to ease her suffering. And from Thursday evening, until Saturday I held her in my arms, sang again to her and urged her to let go. All night Thursday and Friday I held space with my sweet girl in her final hours. I urged her to let her soul fly free. She could not.

During this time, sweet Waldo also held vigil in his spirit form. He would show her how to leave and that he was waiting for her. I know that he had an easier time transitioning because it hadn’t been that long since he was in his spirit body. He showed her over and over how she could leave and become a kitten again in spirit form. Nevertheless, Sierra lingered, forgetting what was before this life, and remembering what she had for the last 19 ½ years.

With a sad heart, I greeted the veterinarian at my door at 11 am on Saturday. I held Sierra and cried and showered her with love as the animal doctor helped her leave her body. Sierra was able to leave very quickly once things got started. Her soul was so ready to soar. It was the last bit of staying present I could give to my sweet sweet girl. The gift of helping her to leave a failed body that was no longer useful for her and to jump into a new life of freedom and love with her brother Waldo.

I know when we make a vow to life and it comes from a very deep place, then life answers our call. When I made the vow to stay present with future suffering loved ones despite my anxiety, little did I know that I would have the opportunity with 2 family members at once. One young and one old, but both loved and treasured beyond all words.

I’m not saying I didn’t have anxiety, I most certainly did. However, I made the decision that I would make my anxiety secondary to the needs of a loved one who needed me so that I could be there for them fully. I wish I could have done that for my boy 3 years ago, but it helped me to venture on this path with Waldo and Sierra in a way that eased their discomfort on their final days, and helped them on their journey in a more graceful way.

I’m not saying I haven’t questioned myself on whether I could have made different decisions, different choices that might have changed the outcome for these amazing souls. And yet, as a dear friend has reminded me, no one is powerful enough to keep a soul here that is meant to leave this earth. Sierra was meant to live a long life, Waldo was not. It really comes down to this very simple fact.

I am no stranger to death. I was a hospice nurse for several years, caring and helping souls who were getting ready to depart this earthly plane. I also have experienced the loss of several loved ones both furry and human over the years. When we experience that kind of deep anguishing loss of someone we loved, I believe there is often the question or thought, that it should not have happened or perhaps we could have done more so that loved one could have stayed on this earth for a longer period of time.

I desire to share this with you as my friend shared with me if any of you are experiencing this thought or feeling right now. Please know, you are not powerful enough to keep a soul here that is ready to go back to the spirit world, to a larger sense of home. But please know this, you will meet again, perhaps during this lifetime an animal friend will reincarnate with you. Or a baby will be born into your family that you recognize immediately as the soul of a loved one who had departed during this life or another lifetime.

In the meantime, the greatest gift we can give another soul is staying present with them during their time of need. When their needs are greater, putting your anxiety at bay is a gift, so that you can be there for them fully.  This presence may show itself by holding their hand, giving them energy, bathing them, administering medication, feeding them, holding them in your arms, cleaning up from their incontinence, singing to them and in so many other ways. At one point after Sierra had her stroke, her bowels let go for several minutes as I held her. I let her know it was okay, I didn’t mind, while gently cleaning her up.

When we provide healing to another, we never know if it’s to help ease their suffering or to help them to stay in their body. This is when healing energy is the most powerful, when we give it from a place of pure love and no attachment to the outcome. The energy I channeled through my body held Waldo in a more peaceful place, but did not keep his body here. It was not meant to stay. The energy I channeled for Sierra, did allow her to rally on several occasions, but ultimately, helped her to transition.

This sharing is about the mystery of life and death. It’s about the vulnerability that comes from an open heart and staying present. It’s about love that knows no boundaries and will find us again and again if we stay open. Since Waldo and Sierra crossed the rainbow bridge they have visited many times and I feel their spirits very profoundly. Waldo is getting ready to jump back into a puppy body and is hoping to come back to his family here. We are in negotiation regarding the timing, but if he has his way, it will be soon. Sierra is still acclimating to her life on the other side. She will stay there a bit longer, remembering what it’s like to be in her spiritual essence. However, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt we will meet again and perhaps in this lifetime.

The last moments with both of my sweet furry family members were held in a place of deep intimacy and sacred space. The kind of love we shared binds us together forever. And in that knowing, my heart is at peace.

So dear friends, if any of you are in the process of assisting a friend, family member or furry loved one through an illness, injury or other time of need, my greatest wish for you is that you stay present for them. Do not worry if you are doing something right or wrong. If the loved one is meant to be here, they will be. If not, no matter what you do, they will leave this earth. By being present, you will be a channel of a great healing force that will have that person or beings greatest needs in mind. And at the same time, allow yourself to be vulnerable, to have an open heart, this is your greatest asset and power you can share with another and for yourself.

Much love,

Dear Friends,

Recently, I was returning home after a trip to Maine to visit my family.  I was catching a connecting flight in Newark, New Jersey to return to Seattle.  When I book my airline tickets, I like to choose seats that are either in row 11 or row 22, my two favorite numbers.  In this case, I was able to acquire a seat in row 11 and connected with a very special young man.

I have always loved numbers and excelled at math when I was in grammar school and high school.  When I was around 11 years old, I obtained my first clock radio.  For some reason, I was drawn to the clock when it turned 11:11.  I told myself it was good luck if I could catch these numbers and then watch them until the numbers changed to the next minute.  I never told anyone about this as I thought people would think I was weird.  After all, I thought I was a bit strange with this obsession.

Fast forward to moving out to Seattle when I was 26 years old.  I was always a person who thought deeply about things but it was upon arriving here and going through some difficult times that my true spiritual life emerged.  I met a woman who I took into my confidence and shared with her my attraction to the numbers 11:11.  She shared with me that there was a spiritual movement around this number and that those people who were connected to the number were here on this earth as light workers, to bring more truth and light into the world.

I have to say I was very excited to hear about this.  Maybe I wasn’t so strange after all, at least to those other people having this same experience around this number.  I started doing some research on my own.

This is one quote I found about this occurrence recently:

“The 11:11 phenomenon should be seen as a “crack between two worlds.” The phenomenon is representative of a linking together of great energies that are united to create a great force that creates a door to an Invisible realm.” (www.exploringlifesmysteries.com/11-11-phenomenon/)

When I think of the numbers 11:11 from my vantage point at this time in my life, I feel it represents the portals to the divine, linking heaven and earth.  The phrase that comes to mind is “as above, so below”.   While I was attempting to get onto the computer just now, my home page came on upside down.  It was an image of a young woman running on the beach with rock formations in the water.  I was marveling at the perfect image of the woman and the rocks reflected on the beach and water and how difficult it was to tell which was the actual right side up image of the woman running.

I realize with gratitude that spirit was giving me a perfect visual representation of this concept of “as above, so below”.  I never know what I am going to write when I sit down at my laptop until my hands are on the keys and I initiate typing.  The words flow from me and they lead me on a journey that I am never sure where I am going to end up!  Spirit knew what I would be sharing with you and provided this experience with the computer and image to me.  What an amazing blessing!

In getting back to my seat number on the plane, I had another wonderful experience.  A vibrant young man sat next to me in the middle seat.  I always like the aisle seat as it gives me more freedom to move around on the longer flights.  From the minute he sat down we connected and had an ease of flow in conversation.  And what pleased me most, was that the conversation did not settle on the mundane and trivial but was heartfelt, spiritual and deep from the moment we connected.  This was a young man from Saudi Arabia who was here in the states going to school.  It touched me deeply to have such a wonderful animated connection with this young man from another culture and younger generation and gave me so much hope for the future.

I reflect that he also consciously or unconsciously chose this number seat or was given to him.  Either way, he was led to sit next to me by our mutual connection to the number 11 and our souls.  Often throughout our conversation, he would say, “I like it, I like it” with this big beautiful smile.  He told me how much he loves to travel and feels he can learn from everyone he meets.  I told him about a teacher I had years ago who told me that there is always something we can learn from everyone.  His response was “I like it, I like it” with another wonderful radiant smile.  He then turned to me and asked what wisdom I could share with him from my experience so far on this earth.

I contemplated for a moment, my brain flowing through my life experiences.  I shared about the power of looking at life through a neutral perspective.  I shared I was still working with this concept in my own life.  I shared how I have learned when we experience anything in our lives, holding our judgement about the situation and allowing it to just be,  opens a spiritual doorway for  information to come to us and we will be led to answers or insights and messages.  If we can hold our judgement about a health situation for instance and stay neutral and open, the divine will lead us to the very thing that will assist us next towards our recovery.  If we meet a person and feel we don’t’ like them, but can suspend judgement while we get to know them, we might learn something very valuable about that person that will teach us compassion, empathy or a lesson for our own lives.  His response was, “I like it, I like it”, giving me another glowing smile.

What an amazing experience with this wonderful young man that created a 5 hour flight to seem like an hour!  We both marveled at how fast the last part of the flight went.  I was deeply grateful to myself for listening and choosing this seat and to the universe for bringing to me this beautiful person whom I believe will bring much light and love into the world.  He truly is a light worker and I was honored to have our paths cross for those moments in time.

So pay attention my friends, to the numbers that draw your attention.   Maybe you too are drawn to the number 11:11 and have wondered about this observance for years.  Maybe other numbers often connect with you.  Most likely there is meaning there for you.  Three years ago, I used numerology to find my puppy Willy.   He is the incarnation of my previous dog Elmo.  In this search to find him, there were about 10 synchronicities involving numbers.  One of them being Willy’s birthday.  His birthday is 3/12 and Elmo’s birthday was 2/13, mirror images of each other.  I remember getting chills when I discovered his birthday and knew even before finding out his birthday, it was an auspicious date.

I wish all of you the joy and wonder of connecting with spirit in the repeating patterns that life presents to you.  The divine is always speaking to us.   It might be through numbers, through images displayed on a computer, through words that flow through your fingers, through people you meet on a plane or at work.  These nudges from the divine are a reminder we are always connected to something greater than ourselves.  Pay attention my friends, and you will receive the blessing that life is offering you.

Lots of love,

Rosemary

Dear Friends,

I’ve continued to communicate with a friend of mine in the Chico California area just down the road from Paradise, where the Camp Fire started.  She has been volunteering at the shelters as well as conversing with several people she knows who lost their homes in the fires.   As devastating as these fires were, there also surfaced some positive experiences arising from the destruction.

My friend shared about a couple of people who actually felt uplifted by not having the burden of a home.  Another person shared that the house that burned down represented an old relationship and the fact the house was no longer there freed her from the relationship on a deeper level.

I remember years ago reading about a spiritual teacher who had lost her home in a fire.  She shared that she had been called to move closer to her children for years but had not listened to the calling.  After the fire, she readily moved to be near her family.

I don’t believe we have to experience catastrophic loss to experience changes our souls are yearning for us to make.  However, as in the cases above, life’s disasters can move us towards a direction our souls are encouraging us to follow.

I am particularly impressed by the freedom the people above expressed over not having the burden of material things weighing them down.  I contemplate on the holiday season and the rush of shoppers to buy more goods and items that perhaps may only weigh down another person as well, rather than bring them joy.  My mother has been paring down the material things in her life and I suspect she takes a deep breath sometimes and attempts to be gracious when other items fill up her space in the form of gifts.

There is something about an uncluttered space that gives the heart and mind a chance to breathe and relax a bit.  And out of that breath creativity can arise as there is room for it to express itself.  Another nurse that I know recently sold her house and almost everything she and husband owned and they moved onto a boat.  She states she is happier than she has been in a long time.  She even was able to pay off all of her debt.

I shared with her that my life is exactly the opposite of what she has created for herself.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my home, my animals and my gardens.   But there are times, I feel weighed down by how much I have to take care of.  I’m not sure of what the answer is for myself at the moment but I am witnessing others as they simplify their lives.  In the meantime, I stay grateful for the joy my home and animals bring to me and I look forward to my future garden blooming once again.

So why am I sharing this with all of you?  It’s to encourage all of us, myself included, to meditate on the things that really bring us joy.   To encourage all of us to think about the things that might be weighing us down and causing us to feel burdened, overwhelmed, or sad.  Can we have the courage to let go of those things?

What might be weighing us down could even be thoughts that are taking up space in our heads.  Perhaps there is self condemnation going on, fear of a health crisis, worry over a loved one, anxiety over the potential loss of a job.  Thoughts carry weight and can be reflected by a heaviness in our bodies.  This energetic heaviness can translate into physical or mental health illness, can create injuries, can slow us down and make us less reactive when we really want/need to react.

I believe the Christmas and the New Year can be a time to slow down, and reflect on what is weighing us down.  What material thing be it physical, emotional or spiritual, is causing us to feel burdened and unhappy.    Where can we lighten the load so to speak.  This seems like a bit of an oxymoron given that this is the time of year where we give and receive material things that we may or may not need.  It can also be a time of year when we feel disappointments, old heavy feelings from Christmas’s past, or just physically heavy from eating and drinking too much.

I encourage all of us to find the motivation to spend time in reflection on where we can lighten our loads or the loads of others to become healthier and happier.   Maybe it is time to move our place of residence, get rid of old accumulated household items or clothes, change a relationship status, eliminate negative thoughts that are cluttering our hearts and minds.   In my case, I am starting to get take care of paperwork that seems to pile up even as I sleep!  I am also organizing my paperwork so that my frustration over the accumulated piles is not continuing to draw my attention and lower my energy.  (Okay, this might take a while!)

I remember years ago, I was surprised that a spiritual teacher I was working with did not have any plants around her home.  I guess I just assumed that a spiritual person would have plants around her.  Not sure exactly where that thought came from, perhaps because I love plants myself.  In any case, her answer to me still captures me to this day.  She stated very clearly, “I never have more in my life than I can take care of”.

I think of my own life in contrast to my teacher above.  I certainly did not seem to emulate that trait.  However, I do know I am taking care of things well overall.  However, the one area that has suffered in my life is the feeling of freedom to get away from home, to travel and to explore new places.  I am looking forward to the freedom that will arise as I unburden myself from the piles of paperwork and things that are weighing me down.

So dear friends, I wish all of you the freedom that comes from letting go of objects  in your life that do not serve you.  This might be a person, place, thing or a thought process.   Look at this item closely and ask yourself, “does this bring me joy or does it hold me captive to a listless life”?   If it does not make you happy, perhaps it is time to let it go.  I particularly wish this for those of you who are dealing with health issues, depression, or anxiety.  Those things weigh heavy on our souls and take the joy out of living.

You might not be able to drop a health issue immediately, but you can let go of the thoughts about it that are holding you hostage and causing you despair.  I know that sounds simplistic and maybe unreasonable given what you are dealing with.  However, another teacher once told me, “there is always a way in or out of every situation.  We just have to be creative and step outside of our old way of thinking and ancestral family patterns to find the answer”.

I wish all of you this Christmas and New Year, the joy that comes from the Lightness of Being.   The freedom that comes from lightening your load, the peace that settles into your spirit as you unclutter your life of anything physical, emotional or spiritual that is weighing you down.

Namaste,

Rosemary

Dear Friends,

This Thanksgiving I am very grateful  the fires in California did not reach Chico where a good friend of mine resides.  Many others, including several people my friend knows were not as lucky.  I am stunned at the number of people who lost all their belongings as well as the loss of life in the fires that have devastated areas of California.  My heart and prayers go out to those affected by this tragedy.

My friends proximity  to the fires that decimated Paradise (only 12miles away) has motivated me to keep aware of what is happening in California.  I have been moved by the stories of survivors of both humans and animals.  And I have experienced deep sadness for the humans and animals who were not so lucky.

On the second day of hearing about the fires, I was very concerned about my friend in Chico as another friend of mine called and asked If I had talked to her that morning.  I stated I was just getting ready to call her and she urged me to do so quickly as her city was being evacuated.

I hurried to get online for an update and read that the fire was within 2 miles of Chico.  My head was spinning and a rush of panic filled me.  I was horrified at what my friend might be going through and was disturbed that I could not reach her.  I was very emotional about not being able to be there to help her through such a devastating time and felt extremely helpless.

I then encouraged myself to calm down and to send my friend energy.  That action was the most profound thing I could do, as well as providing prayers and energetic support to help her make the right decisions along her path that would assist in keeping both herself and her animals safe.

Within seconds of connecting with my friend’s soul, peace descended into my being.  I was in awe that my friend could take in the energy so quickly and be at peace during such a terrible time.  I still was not able to reach her for several hours but the feeling of calm remained with me and I was able to go about my day.  I was still staying connected with her but not going around in circles feeling helpless.

My friend finally called me later that afternoon.  She sounded in fairly good spirits.  She then told me she had been in a couple of yoga classes and was the reason I could not reach her.  I had to laugh at this in terms of my concern about the drama I imagined she might be going through.  And in reality, I was the one experiencing emotional upset for something that was not truly occurring.  The fire had not reached Chico and the residents there did not have to be evacuated.

This misunderstanding seemed to be a little bit of a cosmic joke on me!  I realized my personality reacted to information that I perceived as real and became very unsettled. However, once my soul connected with my friend, I felt the TRUTH of what was happening in the moment.  It was actually her energy during her yoga class that calmed me down.   This situation was both a humbling experience and humorous at the same time.  My friend, in order to keep herself calm and deal with the severe smoky environment,  held the consciousness to go to Yoga classes.

The reason I am sharing this with you is to show how our egos and personalities are quick to jump to conclusions about what we perceive is happening in our world.   I do believe my reasons for concern regarding my friend were very valid but I did not have the correct information for my personality to decipher what was really happening.   However, my soul being not of time or place, could connect in an instant and know the TRUTH.

Often when we are going through experiences in our lives, whether with health, relationships or other issues, our personalities jump to the conclusion of what we perceive is the TRUTH.   If we only look at things one dimensionally we cannot know what is truly occurring.  However, if we calm ourselves down, and take a moment to go inward and connect with the part of ourselves that is connected with all of totality and is not limited by time and space, we can find what is authentically occurring.

If someone is going through a health scare, say for instance cancer or heart disease, and a medical provider tells them they have so many months to live, that person, most likely, is going to react from a personality stand point and be emotionally distraught.  However, if that same person can go inward, and not accept the one dimensional truth of that doctor, but instead listens to their own higher self then they might find a different answer that truly feels more accurate.

The person who connects with their higher self, might KNOW that they have many more years to live and will not take the physician’s word as “GOD”.  Physicians, at times, speak from their own personalities believing in what they read or hear through the medical grapevine so to speak.  However, the more beneficial health practitioner will have a direct link to a spiritual grapevine that connects them to their own inner knowing.  They will know and understand they do not have the answers for another person but they can guide, support and make suggestions from their own educational and personal experience.   A quality medical provider or healer will go beyond that scope of practice and assist their patients to find answers that resonate from their own connection to a higher truth.

So please my friends, if  you are experiencing   a difficult time, notice when your personality takes over giving information it perceives as correct.  If you are feeling very emotional, take a step back from the despair, panic or sadness, go inward and connect with a deeper part of yourself that is connected to a higher knowing.  If you can’t get any answers because you are too emotional, just knowing that the personality is creating drama for you and does NOT know everything, can calm you down.

Our personalities are limited, our higher selves are unlimited and multidimensional.  Our higher self is always connected to our  physical  being linking us with knowledge that has been accumulated through lifetimes and holds wisdom and understanding that can be tapped into at any time.

Sending you all much love and gratitude for taking the time to read what I have to share.  I am deeply grateful and humbled and hoping you are all safe and well during this Thanksgiving time and moving into the rest of the holiday season.

Much love,

Rosemary Veilleux

Dear Friends

In celebrating the spirit of Halloween today I thought I would share my recent spider encounter story with you.

This past week I took a road trip with my brother to Cheyenne Wyoming.  After almost 4 years of living in Seattle, he was ready for another challenge in the form of a manager position for his current employer at a different store in Cheyenne.  I was sad he was leaving but happy for him as he was excited about this new position and moving to a new location.

I decided to drive with him to Cheyenne as I was feeling in desperate need of an adventure.  This sounded like a fun way to see some new sights and get out of my routine for a short time and would allow me to spend some quality time with my brother.

We spent the first night at a hotel in Boise Idaho.  I would have loved to have had more time there to explore the 25 mile path along the river outside of the hotel.  However, we did get a short walk along the meandering walkway to a fun restaurant and experienced many honking geese along the water edge even at 9 pm!  After finding a restaurant for dinner and relaxing a bit we went back to the hotel.  I wasn’t particularly thrilled with my room as it did not feel very good to me,  however we were only there a short time so decided not to think about it too much and be grateful for the shelter.

As I was getting ready to crawl into bed, I noticed a small white spider crawling on the night stand.  I have to say I was not happy about this sighting as I had experienced about a dozen spider bites over the course of the past couple of months while working in my gardens and yard.

The spider bites this summer along with a few poison oak exposures had sent my immune system into a bit of confusion and created a feeling of malaise for a couple of months.  When I saw this spider next to the bed, I thought to myself, “are you kidding me!”.   I then felt energetically into the room and could sense there were other spiders lurking around but was too tired to look for them.  I crawled into bed wearing a thick sweater and sweatpants and the sheets curled up around my neck.

Needless to say, I didn’t sleep much that night and finally crawled out of bed around 5 am.  As I was preparing to make some tea, I noticed another spider crawling up the wall.  Ugh!!  After dealing with him, I turned and noticed an even bigger spider on the bed next to my suitcase.  Luckily, he/she was not on the bed where I had attempted to sleep.  I admit, I proclaimed a few expletives after discovering the 3^rd spider!

As I mentioned in my previous sharing, when a creature shows up in our lives and makes a point of connecting with us, it’s important to pay attention.  In Native American Spiritual Totems, the spider is about creativity, receptivity, patience, and can also represent our shadow side.  However, when I think of spiders I think of the incredible webs they create, so intricate and beautiful.  I remember years ago,  the sun was shining on several webs on my deck causing them to shimmer and glisten.  I felt deeply touched and in awe of the amazing creative energy these beings possess.   I would take down the webs in the evening only to find them back up in the morning.  What incredible creatures they are.

While on the road trip the next day with my brother, I reviewed information on spider totems and found that the spider is often the totem for writers.   I then thought, what better way to honor this totem then by sharing their journey with me recently.   I talked to my brother a bit about spirit totems as this seemed to be a new concept for him.  I pointed out to him that he appeared to have a strong affinity to hawk, often seeing them and pointing them out to me before I witnessed them flying and gliding on the air streams above the truck.

When I read about hawk medicine to my brother, we discovered that hawk is often the totem for people stepping into leadership positions.  The hawk was supporting my brother on his journey and escorting him into his new leadership role.  I felt these sightings were a very good omen for him.

I was not yet done with my spider adventure however.  As I was helping my brother unpack his boxes, a small spider leapt out.  He made the journey from Washington state with us.  We joked that the whole ecosystem in Wyoming might change because of this little fellow finding his new home there.

I ventured back to Seattle over this past weekend.   Upon arriving home, I was very tired and even though I felt drawn to changing my bed so I would have fresh sheets, I decided to wait until the next day.  When I went to change them the following afternoon, I discovered yet another surprise.  I took off the blankets and top sheet and there at the bottom of the bed on top of the mattress was a large spider.  He must have been there all night.

How he got there I have no idea.   “Alright already, I got the message, I exclaimed!!”  However, this did not stop me from taking my flashlight and looking at every nook and cranny in my room.  All I found were a bit of dust bunnies but no eight legged creatures scurrying about.

So, why also am I sharing this story with all of you besides the fact that today is Halloween.   The reason is to emphasize once again how spirit is always trying to attract our attention and show us the path to greater fulfillment in our lives and assist us with our emotional and spiritual growth.  Spirit also at times provides confirmation that we are on the right track, much like the hawk showed my brother.

Sometimes we get the message quickly and the messenger can move through our lives easily.  However, sometimes we need a bit of a jolt and repetitive prodding to get us to wake up to the message life is sharing with us.

In my case, I thought I  understood the message last summer:  Create, create, create!!  However, I obviously didn’t receive the specific message until the 3 spiders showed up at the hotel.  I wonder if they were the spider spirits of Halloween’s past, present and future?  When I read, while in the truck, about spiders often being the totem of writers, I felt a chill up and down my spine which is a sign of truth for me.

I then received the specific message I wasn’t fully comprehending from my earlier spider connections:  Write, write, write!   So why then, did the large spider show up in my bed once I returned to Seattle?  I feel that was to make sure I didn’t forget the message once I got back into the comfort of routine and home life.

So pay attention my friends to the beings showing up in your life.   They have a message for you and hopefully you’ll get it a bit quicker than I understood mine.  But take heart, if you don’t embrace the message the first time, more opportunities will come your way!

Wishing you all the joy of connecting with your Spirit Totems, and receiving the guidance, wisdom and joy (and sometimes a bit of annoyance) they have to offer to you.  In the end, once you understand their message, you will realize it is all good.

Namaste,

Rosemary Veilleux

Dear Friends,

I recently was exposed to poison oak several times before I knew what was occurring.  I had a very significant rash on my hand that I thought was a spider bite.  I have been getting spider bites over the course of the last couple months while working in my gardens.  However, the spider bites healed quicker and this particular insult to my skin was not going away.   It was itchy, and frustrating not knowing what was causing it.  I have my brother to thank for discovering the source as he told me he thought it looked like Poison Ivy or Poison Oak.  When he told me this, the synapses clicked and I realized he was probably right.

Earlier that day, I had gone swimming in Lake Washington at my favorite spot with my Australian Shepard Waldo.  In order to secure his leash while I was swimming, I tied it to a piece of driftwood that had some plants over it and I had to push the plants away with my hand to get the leash connected to it.  I had been there 3 times for a swim and I performed the same leash securing routine each time.

On my way to my swim spot there is a 2 ½ mile walk on this very lovely path.  At the beginning of the path, there is a sign that states Poison Oak in that one area.  I’ve seen it many times but that day of my 3^rd swim, I was particularly attracted to it.  And when I got to my swim spot, I had a strong feeling I should avoid the plants around the driftwood.   Not because of fear of Poison Oak as there was no sign stating it was around this area but rather because of concern that spiders might be lurking around.

The rash wasn’t healing because I kept being exposed to the Poison Oak.   When I went swimming that last day, my brother had not yet mentioned what his thoughts were, yet my eyes were very drawn to the Poison Oak sign and my intuition tried to keep me away from the plants but not for the reason I had thought.  Unfortunately, I was then exposed one more time as the oil from the plant was on the leash handle and I did not realize this.

The reason I am sharing this story, is that sometimes we can’t heal because we continue to be exposed to something that is lowering our vibration, causing a toxic reaction in our bodies, minds or spirits.  In this case, it was a physical substance but the offending substance could be something emotional or spiritual that is the cause of toxicity for us.

Often times, we may not know what the offending substance is.  In my case, I did energy work on myself to clear any blocks to healing the rash.   The healing came from my own intuition and attracting a visit with my brother who gave me his insights.  My intuition tried  to keep me away from the plants and drawing my attention to the sign.  Some of you reading this might wonder why I didn’t know what Poison Oak looked like?  Well, I do now!!!

If you are wondering why you might be experiencing a certain issue in your life, perhaps you are being exposed over and over to the very thing that is causing you difficulty.   Perhaps you are feeling depressed, and yet you are living with an abusive partner every day, or living a daily routine that brings you no joy.  Perhaps, you are having stomach issues, and you are eating or drinking something often that is caustic to your body.

Often, we really don’t know why we are feeling what we are feeling or why we are experiencing a physical illness that is causing us discomfort.   In those times, we have help all around us.  You don’t have to be an energy worker to draw assistance to you.   Simply say a prayer, put out an intention, stay connected to life, and your answers will come to you.  But here is the clincher, you have to observe and listen to the answers that come your way!  If a friend, or family member gives you their thoughts or opinion, stay open.  They could have some very important information for you.

If you hear a clear thought in your head that you should avoid a situation, person or place, there might be a very good reason for this.  And if the thought is repetitive, chances are this thought is holding some clarity for you.  That repetitive thought is coming from your intuition, or possibly your spirit guide, guiding you to your answer.

If you are experiencing a physical issue and are frustrated, as much as possible, give the issue to God, life force, to something greater than yourself!  And then watch and listen for what comes to you.  That person you meet at the store might have something very interesting to share with you.  A friend you meet at the gym might have an insight for you to embrace.   A new or unusual animal might cross your path and stop and look at you or venture into your yard.   In this last case, finding out about that animal’s spirit totem can be incredibly helpful.

Spirit brings to us our answers all the time through our friends, family, animals, nature, co-workers, strangers, daily occurrences.   Once we start opening up to the synchronicities of life, we start to feel our hearts open and miracles come our way.   I truly believe that life is always leading us towards healing unless it is our time to leave this earth.   However, even if it is our time to leave our bodies, incredible transformation occurs and can bring the ultimate healing of our spirit.

So, please take heart my friends!  If you are dealing with something challenging in your life, ask for information on how to heal, and open your eyes and ears to what comes to you.  I promise you, spirit will provide you what you need.  Embrace the signs that life is providing to you,  have the courage to make the changes that are needed and find the joy and healing you deserve!

Lots of love,

Rosemary

Dear Friends,

I witnessed a powerful healing transformation recently.  I feel I could even say it was a miraculous healing.  A friend of mine went into the hospital a couple of weeks ago with a dangerously fast heart rate.  She has a history of heart issues.  The doctors started her on a powerful drug to get her heart back into proper rhythm.  When I left her the first evening, her heart rate was coming down slowly but still dangerously high.

The next day, I received a call from her son stating that his mom was very ill and the doctors were not sure she would make it.  I rushed to the hospital wanting to be with her as she left this earth, if that was her choice.  When I arrived, her blood pressure was now dangerously low and her heart rate had come way down.  She was not conscious as her brain was not getting enough blood and oxygen due to the low blood pressure.  Her son and I met with the cardiologist who stated she was critically ill but they were not going to give up on her.

The internist talked to both of us as well about his mom’s wishes if they were not able to get her heart stabilized.  The doctor had put her on a very potent drug to bring her heart rate and blood pressure up but stated emphatically they could not keep her on this medication and would eventually wean it to see if her heart was able to stabilize itself.  The doctor stated if her heart could not come back into rhythm on it’s own once they started weaning her from the medication, she very well could end up on a ventilator and most likely would not get off of it.  I made some calls to the funeral home in case services from them were needed over the weekend and to take that burden off of her son.

This woman had 5 serious issues going on including being septic from pneumonia, meaning the doctors believed the infection had spread through her body.  They were giving her 2 powerful antibiotics but her white blood cells continued to increase showing the antibiotics were not helping .  They said her kidneys were compromised and her lungs had fluid in them, and she was in heart failure.  Her liver enzymes were extremely high.  Any one of these medical issues could take a person’s life.  Her body was very compromised.

I immediately went to work providing energetic support to all her organs and working on some emotional issues that were causing her grief and fear.  I could feel these issues were affecting her heart, lungs and kidneys.  When I had some quiet time alone with her, I met her in spirit and saw that she was moving towards transitioning rather than staying here on this earth.  She was looking at her parents on the other side and was very happy to see them.  However, she was still about 40 % connected to her body.  From that, I knew there was still some hope for her to stay even if she was leaning towards leaving her body.  If I had sensed she was 80 or 90% moving towards the other side, there would have been a good chance she would transition from this earthly realm.

I conversed with her about her fears, and gave her some information she did not know that could help her make her decision about staying in her body or not.  I showed her all the people who loved her here as well but that we all wanted her to be happy and we would be okay if she decided to go.   Her son came into the room and verbally reinforced this with her as well.

I provided energetic support to the medical team to help guide their decisions regarding treatment and to not give up on her.  I witnessed the medical staff, one male nurse in particular, make a couple of very pivotal decisions that changed greatly the course of healing and allowed her to wake up to visit with her loved ones around her, who thought they might be having their final moments with her.

During this time, her son was providing her with massage and pressure point therapy to her feet to help stimulate her organs, and using a lotion that is infused with energetic frequencies.  He is a healer in his own right and this comes naturally through his ancestral lineage.    My friend also was the recipient of powerful love and heart connections from her friends.  One friend sat with her providing humor and playfulness, another who provided her with the sacrament of Holy Communion, and several other friends provided her with the quiet state of love and prayer.  All of these things can be powerfully healing to someone in distress.

I left on the 2nd day, with the feeling she had turned around towards her loved ones on this earth, and that she decided to stay.  By the 3rd day, her white blood cells starting coming down, and her blood pressure was stabilizing. She was more alert, but still quite weak.  By the 4th, 5th and 6th days, she was talking more, her kidney function had returned to normal and by the 7th day she was getting out of bed.  By the 8th day she was off of her oxygen and her liver enzymes were coming down quite nicely.

When I walked into her room on the 9th day, she was sitting up, eating heartily, and talking animatedly.  By the 10th day she left the hospital.  I visited her on the 11th day, and she looked better than I had seen her in a while, and she shared with me an experience she had.  At some point, she stated that she felt powerfully “zapped” by energy and was a bit in awe of this experience.  She wonders if this was when her heart went back into rhythm.  I believe this was when her soul made the decision to stay and all the love and energy being given to her was able to rush to her aide, so to speak.  If she had decided to leave, that most likely would not have happened.

This woman’s transformation was powerful in the physical turn around of all of these serious conditions.  And not only that, when her heart, kidneys, lungs, stabilized, they did so very quickly.

But here is the aspect of this journey that was most powerful for me.  My friend’s healing was a collaborative effort between the doctors, the nurses, her friends, son, and myself.  Her body was so sick and even though I believe very strongly in the power of energetic healing, sometimes the body also needs something to match the state it is in at the moment, in this case she needed the vibration of the drugs that were being given to her.  However, she also needed the love of her friends and son and the energetic support and mediumship by myself that buoyed her spirit and soul.   And this woman is feisty and has a strong spirit.

If any of the elements mentioned above had been missing, the outcome might have been very different.  She may very well have left this earth, or lingered in an uncomfortable state before transitioning to the other side.  In this case, not only her body was being attended to, but also her mind and her spirit.  This is where the miracle was created!  I truly believe we will see more of this kind of healing happening in the future as we continue to integrate emotional and spiritual modalities into the traditional healing realm.

Ultimately, it is the person who is sick who decides what healing he or she will take in and whether or not will stay on this earth.  If you as loved one or healer can accept and respect the person’s journey but also provide whatever comfort you can with whatever gifts you have, you might find yourself being given another day, another week, another year or more to share with this loved one!  Or you might have the joy of watching a very sick patient get better and leave to have more time with family and friends.

And isn’t even the gift of one more day, or one more hour with our loved ones precious?  Any time we have with someone we love is such a blessing and a miracle!

Namaste my beautiful friends!
Rosemary

Dear Friends,

Late Sunday afternoon I was driving home on the interstate from a yoga teacher training.  It was a beautiful summer day, sunny and warm.  I needed to call my mom to provide some information about a friend of hers who had gone into the rehabilitation center.  As is quite often during our conversations, my mother had lots to say about her concerns for me.  Was I too tired to be driving all the way there to the training?  Was it too expensive?  Why did I need to be doing this?  Make sure I didn’t quit my day nursing job!  She doesn’t seem to quite grasp the idea that my healing work is as much of my day job as my nursing business and in many ways more so.

As she was sharing her litany of fears for me, there appeared in front of my car, a group of motorcycle riders.  There were about 6 of them directly in front of me doing tricks on their motorcycles.  They appeared to be in their 20’s and to be having a wonderful time on their ride.  A few of them were standing on the seats of the motorcycles and pulling the front tire up and balancing on the back tire.  They were doing other things as well.  And they appeared to have no fear!

My first response was to feel concern for them and the other drivers, myself included, as we were all going about 60 miles an hour including the motorcyclists.  And I would say that my concerns were valid.  However, on another level, I was in awe of them.  Of course, I didn’t realize this at the time especially while talking to my mom and addressing her fears for me and, at the same time, being concerned for the safety on the road for all of us.

When I arrived home and contemplated on this situation, I realized what an amazing situation life force provided for me to witness.  I have been working through my own fear based issues pretty much my whole life.  My parents came from a generation that witnessed the Great Depression, World War ll, and later the Vietnam War.  Their parents before them also witnessed wars and poverty and so forth down the lineage of ancestors.  Fear was ingrained in them and I do not blame my mom for sharing her fears with me.  It is her way of showing love and concern.  It was what she learned as well.

When I just keyed into the energy of these young motorcyclists, and not focusing on the safety part of what was occurring, I could feel joy, community, fearlessness within them and their riding.  And I know that this situation was for me to witness, at that moment in time, as it was in great contrast to what my mom was presenting to me at that very moment.  The Yin and the Yang of life, the hiding and the thrill of life!

I had thought about not attending the training that afternoon.  I had not slept well, and the old voice in my head stemming from my mother’s fears, was that I was too tired to go.  However, a dream the night before had showed me that it was my ancestor’s voice getting in my way.  In the dream, I was heading into the yoga training but was late for class as my mother was there and kept talking to me.  When I woke and experienced the concern of being “too tired” to drive all the way up to the studio and participate in the training, I remembered the dream and realized it represented my mother’s fears for me.

I made the decision to go to the training despite the concern of not sleeping well.  I’m so happy that I did participate, as I had fun, learned new skills, and met new people.  And when I feel into this situation, the energy was much like the motorcyclists that were enjoying their day out with their community.  Perhaps the same danger thrill was not there, but in a way it was.  I grew up with “tiredness and poverty” being the danger.  And I continue to move through these past fears and realize they aren’t a reality for me.  I know how to take care of myself, provide a good living and to get extra rest when needed.

Sometimes, life calls us forth, even when we are tired, or perhaps feeling a bit stretched financially.  Life summons us to participate, have fun, and enjoy the thrill of trying new things, meeting new people, performing new tricks, purely for the fun of living!  This means sometimes going forth despite not getting a good night’s sleep, or knowing exactly where our next pay check is coming from, or truly knowing if we are going to be safe doing what we are called to be doing.

Those motorcyclists did not know if they would fall off of their cycles.  I did not know if I would be safe driving up to the class.  None of us ever know, whether we stay home, or go outside our doors if we are going to be ‘safe”.  But isn’t that the adventure of life?  Doesn’t safety lie in something so much greater than our physical selves?  Safety goes beyond mere physicality to embrace the soul and spirit of living!

There is nothing wrong with staying home and being relaxed, and in many ways this is a wonderful thing to do, especially if we have been working hard and many hours.  Or perhaps we have gone through a very stressful time and just need to rest.  However, life is about balance. Rest is good, but so is moving, changing, trying new things, meeting new people.

My suggestion to all of you ,when trying to make a plan about trying something new, is to ask yourselves these questions, especially if you are leaning one way or another but not sure about your decision:

“Am I making a decision because I truly need to rest and rejuvenate, or making it based on my ancestor’s or collective consciousness fears?  Or am I making this decision based on the joy of trying something new, the thrill of learning a new skill, the excitement of meeting a new community or purely just for the fun of  doing it?”

Whatever your answer is, feel into the energy of your answer.  If your answer creates warmth over your heart, a feeling of joy in your body, a sense of peace or happiness in your mind, then go with that!!  That is your soul calling to you!  You can also experience anxiety while experiencing these positive emotions that is okay and you can even feel tired.  However, if the thing you are deciding on provides only a feeling of trepidation, or worry without any good feeling to go with it, then chances are this is something that is not right for you at the moment.

Life is about balance.  Rest is good, but so is trying something new.  Are we going to hide out in life or get up on our metaphorical motorcycles and have the thrill of a lifetime, feeling the breeze on our skin, the sun in our faces, and the wind at our backs while sharing it with others!

Wishing you all the balance of healthy rest with the thrill of new adventure, the joy of making new friends and fun of experiencing and exploring all that life has to offer!

Namaste,
Rosemary

Dear Friends,

Recently I completed a 200 hour Yoga Teacher Training.  I remain a bit perplexed as I am not sure I want to be a Yoga Teacher.  I was talking to a friend of mine about this and she was sharing a similar journey with me in terms of her own life.  She stated she was currently in that quiet place between where she was and where she was yet to be.  I loved that!!  There was no judgement, just acceptance of the “in between place”.  When a place is quiet, there are no “should’s, planning, worrying, pushing, pulling” to be any place else.  There is just this moment and then another moment and then another.

In my energy work with others, this “in between place”, is the place of neutrality.  I provide energetic strengthening to assist a person to become “neutral” energetically to whatever is happening in his/her lives that is causing discontent.  The reason “neutrality or the quiet in between place’ is so powerful is because this is where all possibilities exist.  It is a place where Life Force, Universal Energy, God, whatever you call the higher power in your life, can bring to you easily the very thing your soul is yearning to create for you.

I ponder on why it is that we are always wanting to get somewhere quickly.  Why is it that we want to get the answer quickly, build something quickly, drive somewhere quickly, etc etc.  And the ultimate thing we usually want to be completed in a hurry is our own healing, especially when that thing we want to heal from is causing us to slow down, to be in pain, and to not get things done the way we want to complete them.

I know many of you have heard the phrase “it is the journey that is important and not the destination”.  But if we contemplate on this thought for a moment, and ask ourselves why the journey is so important, we might be surprised at the answer. The answer is this:  The journey is important because that is where we experience fun and learning.  The destination can be wonderful but the journey is where the fullness of life resides!

Even with healing, there can be fun to experience, and joy to be found.  A dear friend of mine who is receiving chemo for her situation has so much fun interacting with the other people joining her while partaking in their own journey.  She has made friends and influences others wherever she goes.

In my own journey with the Yoga training, I often found myself looking forward to when the 9 weekends were over.  And yet, when I immersed myself in the training and participated fully with the people, I had so much fun!  Yes, the training was painful at times, as it stretched me literally and figuratively, yet within that pain was laughter and many moments of pleasure.

Can we really have moments of joy and pain at the same time and the answer is resoundingly YES!  We are not one dimensional beings, but multidimensional creatures.  We have many many parts of us that can experience and assimilate an array of things in our lives at the same time and do it beautifully.  That is why we can experience fun, joy and happiness while going thru something that our minds perceive as painful and frustrating.

When we remain in that “quiet of the in between place” we are in the most profound place we can be or experience.  It is the place where angels hover and God whispers truth and love to us.  It is where the spark of divinity exists and is ready to ignite great passions, great insights, great healings.  However, when we push, prod, fret, complain, about where we are at, those whispers are much harder to hear and acknowledge.

Every day, we can enter that “quiet of the in between place” when we take moments to slow done, ponder, meditate, reflect, and nothing more.  When we become in that quiet place our heart rate slows down, our breathing becomes deeper, our very cells function more fully because they are getting more oxygen and blood and energy into the fabric of their beings.  And the natural intelligence of our own cells can work more efficiently because our negative thought patterns aren’t sending waves of dysfunctional energy and toxins into their bodies.

Even if you are working a busy job you can take moments, snippets of time, to enter that quiet zone.  A couple of men who participated in the yoga training and who work at a large corporation in the area, shared that they take moments during their day to stop and center themselves with meditation.  The techniques we learned can be completed in a few minutes and have profound effect on our days.  Other people who work in various offices stated the same thing.  I had this thought, that wouldn’t it be amazing if every corporation could encourage their employees to take a few minutes every hour to “enter the quiet place”.  Can you imagine the productivity that would ensue, and how the health of the population in that company would improve?  And most likely, job satisfaction would be enhanced as well!

My suggestion, to any of you that are dealing with stressful lives, stressful jobs, painful injuries or health conditions, is to take a few minutes every hour to enter “the quiet place” between where you are and where you want to be.  If you are trying to figure out a problem, stop and enter the “quiet zone”.  Allow the angels to hover and God to whisper the answers to you.

If you have an illness, enter this “quiet place” often. You can ask for guidance and then rest, knowing that the answers are in the air all around you.  In the “quiet place” breathe peacefully and allow every cell of your being to assimilate the energy that is being transmuted to you by the Will of the Divine.  If negativity seeps into the quiet, just let it move on through.  Negativity is a build up of collective thoughts and emotions that don’t really belong to any of us, we just think they do and then we hold on to them.  Let them go, let them go, let them go…..breathe and smile.

Wishing you all much fun and learning along your journey and many quiet moments of the in between place, no matter what is occurring in your lives.  You will be transformed.

Namaste,
Rosemary

Dear Friends,

I set aside time to write my blog one evening this week but woke feeling a bit uninspired that morning.  I said a quick prayer asking for assistance to become inspired.  Little did I know that my motivation would come in the form of a fly.  I proceeded on with my morning and a short while later, while taking a break, I noticed a fly around the kitchen.  My Goldendoodle, Willy, was having great fun jumping around and trying to catch and chomp on him.  Luckily (for the fly) I was able to catch it in my hand and proceeded to put it outside.  However, the fly flew between my screen and sliding glass door.  There was a small amount of room where he could have found his way out but instead he kept walking in circles.  Every time he came closer to the area where he could have become free he turned around and walked back into the middle of the screen.

I then took the screen door off and set it against a table about a foot from the door.  I waited to see if he had enough fly brains to realize he was free but he still stayed walking around the screen door in circles.  Several times getting close to the edge where he would have become free but then he moved back into the center of the screen.  He stayed there for quite a while and I finally shooed him away.  I could have done this in the beginning but I was curious to see if he would figure it out.  I guess I gave a lot more credit to the little creature than was due to him.

I laughed as well that I have been like that fly so many times in my life.  And I’m sure my spiritual guides have also had quite a chuckle at my expense.  I can here them saying, “Come on girl, you are soooo close, you can do it!!”  But then I would walk back into whatever drama I was dealing with never realizing how close I was to freedom.

I think most of us have a bit of fly brains some times.  I know we also have all probably given encouragement to a loved one at some point recognizing just how close they might be to freedom with whatever issue they were experiencing.  But isn’t it usually easier to see this progress in someone else rather than in ourselves?  When we are in the middle of a drama that is often all we can see:  A big flat grey screen that offers no change in landscape!

As I was contemplating on the fly, I realized to him my hand was probably a huge threat.  It was an unknown object that had him in it’s grip. Instead of realizing I was carrying him to his freedom he became even more stuck then before.  (Okay, I’m taking a leap here analyzing this fly behavior!)  Symbolically, my hand represented danger much like many of the dramas that we experience in our lives that catches us in their hold.  And many of these dramas can seem very serious such as illnesses, relationship breakups, deaths, or loss of work.

However, many times life force/God whatever you want to call the higher power that surrounds and enfolds us lends us a hand and sometimes holds us in it’s grasp as we navigate the waters of our discontent.  And many times, the drama itself is the hand carrying us to freedom yet we just can’t get past the grey screen that clouds our vision to see the beauty that is just a few feet away.

So how do we know the difference between a threat and something that is leading us to safety?  I have come to realize that the only way we can know what is for our own safety is to trust in a higher power that “always has our back” and to learn to listen to our intuition which is also “the hand” leading us to safety.

A while back I wrote about my unhappiness with water damage to my garage costing me thousands of dollars in repairs.  And when the wall was taken apart, exposed wires were found in a couple of places.  The contractors were very upset and told me that one spark could have caused a fire and possibly loss of my house which is attached to the garage.  Instead of a few thousand dollars it could have been several hundred thousand dollars in damage and possibly worse for myself and my loved ones.  The water damage was “the hand” guiding me to safety.

Often times we are so stunned by what is happening to us that we cannot access our intuition. We become muddled and feel like we are in a brain fog only experiencing the grey screen of life with no hope of flying free.  In those cases, I truly believe it is important to go inward as much as possible.  Find something that helps you to feel good and expand on that feeling in your heart.  This focus could be your loved one, your gardens, a flower, your animals, anything that brings a feeling of hope and love into your heart.  Once you do this, you can access your intuition.  Even if it only lasts a second, or two seconds, that is all you need to give you a spark of hope and guidance!

That feeling in your heart is the power of creation.  If you can feel this feeling for a few seconds, the next time you might be able to hold it for a few more seconds and soon maybe minutes!  This feeling of love that you feel IS the hand carrying you and a tool you have access to at any time for any experience that is occuring in your life.

Enlightenment is the understanding that everything in life “has light” and meaning in it.  And in this KNOWING deep peace is found.  A serious illness might inspire you towards new experiences that open up a whole new world for you.  A job ending might bring you to starting your own business and with it increased happiness and financial success or perhaps may give you more time with your children, spouse or friends.

The screen door of our dramas can be our prison but just beyond it are gardens, trees, other people and unlimited possibilities!  Next time you find yourself feeling enclosed in the uncomfortable grip of life, as much as possible, sit, relax and breathe!  Expand on anything that brings a feeling of love to your heart and then ask yourself, “where is this hand, this grip on my life leading me?”  It might be leading you just a few feet away to something very special, something magical, that you might never would have discovered if you stayed stuck in the grey screen of fear and drama.

Much love to all of you,
Rosemary