Dear Friends,
I set aside time to write my blog one evening this week but woke feeling a bit uninspired that morning. I said a quick prayer asking for assistance to become inspired. Little did I know that my motivation would come in the form of a fly. I proceeded on with my morning and a short while later, while taking a break, I noticed a fly around the kitchen. My Goldendoodle, Willy, was having great fun jumping around and trying to catch and chomp on him. Luckily (for the fly) I was able to catch it in my hand and proceeded to put it outside. However, the fly flew between my screen and sliding glass door. There was a small amount of room where he could have found his way out but instead he kept walking in circles. Every time he came closer to the area where he could have become free he turned around and walked back into the middle of the screen.
I then took the screen door off and set it against a table about a foot from the door. I waited to see if he had enough fly brains to realize he was free but he still stayed walking around the screen door in circles. Several times getting close to the edge where he would have become free but then he moved back into the center of the screen. He stayed there for quite a while and I finally shooed him away. I could have done this in the beginning but I was curious to see if he would figure it out. I guess I gave a lot more credit to the little creature than was due to him.
I laughed as well that I have been like that fly so many times in my life. And I’m sure my spiritual guides have also had quite a chuckle at my expense. I can here them saying, “Come on girl, you are soooo close, you can do it!!” But then I would walk back into whatever drama I was dealing with never realizing how close I was to freedom.
I think most of us have a bit of fly brains some times. I know we also have all probably given encouragement to a loved one at some point recognizing just how close they might be to freedom with whatever issue they were experiencing. But isn’t it usually easier to see this progress in someone else rather than in ourselves? When we are in the middle of a drama that is often all we can see: A big flat grey screen that offers no change in landscape!
As I was contemplating on the fly, I realized to him my hand was probably a huge threat. It was an unknown object that had him in it’s grip. Instead of realizing I was carrying him to his freedom he became even more stuck then before. (Okay, I’m taking a leap here analyzing this fly behavior!) Symbolically, my hand represented danger much like many of the dramas that we experience in our lives that catches us in their hold. And many of these dramas can seem very serious such as illnesses, relationship breakups, deaths, or loss of work.
However, many times life force/God whatever you want to call the higher power that surrounds and enfolds us lends us a hand and sometimes holds us in it’s grasp as we navigate the waters of our discontent. And many times, the drama itself is the hand carrying us to freedom yet we just can’t get past the grey screen that clouds our vision to see the beauty that is just a few feet away.
So how do we know the difference between a threat and something that is leading us to safety? I have come to realize that the only way we can know what is for our own safety is to trust in a higher power that “always has our back” and to learn to listen to our intuition which is also “the hand” leading us to safety.
A while back I wrote about my unhappiness with water damage to my garage costing me thousands of dollars in repairs. And when the wall was taken apart, exposed wires were found in a couple of places. The contractors were very upset and told me that one spark could have caused a fire and possibly loss of my house which is attached to the garage. Instead of a few thousand dollars it could have been several hundred thousand dollars in damage and possibly worse for myself and my loved ones. The water damage was “the hand” guiding me to safety.
Often times we are so stunned by what is happening to us that we cannot access our intuition. We become muddled and feel like we are in a brain fog only experiencing the grey screen of life with no hope of flying free. In those cases, I truly believe it is important to go inward as much as possible. Find something that helps you to feel good and expand on that feeling in your heart. This focus could be your loved one, your gardens, a flower, your animals, anything that brings a feeling of hope and love into your heart. Once you do this, you can access your intuition. Even if it only lasts a second, or two seconds, that is all you need to give you a spark of hope and guidance!
That feeling in your heart is the power of creation. If you can feel this feeling for a few seconds, the next time you might be able to hold it for a few more seconds and soon maybe minutes! This feeling of love that you feel IS the hand carrying you and a tool you have access to at any time for any experience that is occuring in your life.
Enlightenment is the understanding that everything in life “has light” and meaning in it. And in this KNOWING deep peace is found. A serious illness might inspire you towards new experiences that open up a whole new world for you. A job ending might bring you to starting your own business and with it increased happiness and financial success or perhaps may give you more time with your children, spouse or friends.
The screen door of our dramas can be our prison but just beyond it are gardens, trees, other people and unlimited possibilities! Next time you find yourself feeling enclosed in the uncomfortable grip of life, as much as possible, sit, relax and breathe! Expand on anything that brings a feeling of love to your heart and then ask yourself, “where is this hand, this grip on my life leading me?” It might be leading you just a few feet away to something very special, something magical, that you might never would have discovered if you stayed stuck in the grey screen of fear and drama.
Much love to all of you,
Rosemary