Dear Friends,
For several months recently, I was dealing with an ear issue. This situation had been a bit frustrating in that I had participated in the alternative health route, the medical route, the spiritual and emotional route in attempts at healing and yet the symptoms still lingered. I looked at what I was not hearing and could such as listening more deeply to spirit and other beings who were wanting to communicate with me. I wondered what I was hearing and maybe needed to put some boundaries on it, like not listening to gossiping etc. I asked my intuitive friends for guidance and other energy healers for their advice and my symptoms lingered. A very dear intuitive friend suggested that I go back to when the symptoms started to see if there was any anger still left regarding a situation that occurred during that time specifically anger towards other beings involved. She thought perhaps I had gone straight to the compassionate part of myself and didn’t honor the base feelings of anger that were there. I trust this friend completely and decided to take a look at this issue. I didn’t find any lingering anger towards anyone else, but what I found amazed me. I asked myself was there any anger towards myself and I definitely got a resounding yes to that question.
I asked this part of myself what she considers perfect and she could not answer me. All this part could do was spew criticism, period! I felt this KNOWING, on a deep level that life is not about being perfect. I know we hear that all the time and I really thought I knew what that meant, but now I REALLY know what that means! Life is messy, that is the way it is supposed to be. We are here to make mistakes, role in the mud, have fights, make up, make friends and then maybe even fight again. The messiness is what is beautiful. It is where creative energy resides, explodes and where LIFE HAPPENS!!
Years ago, a friend came to visit our family. The wife had her first child and he was about 2 at the time. The little boy’s mother was very concerned about neatness. She didn’t like it when her child was dirty. She left the child in my parents care for an afternoon while she went shopping. My parents had a plan. They took the baby out for chocolate ice cream and then let him get as messy as he wanted. They let him dribble it on his face and clothes and mush it around on his stroller. He had a blast! This mother, upon seeing her child, burst out laughing and scolded my parents while at the same time continuing to laugh!! For a moment, she let her own inner child come out and see the beauty in the messiness. We all had a wonderful laugh with this and it still makes me smile to this day!
I encourage all of you to look deeply at your inner critic. You may feel you have done this completely but you may not have either. If you haven’t, I encourage you to invite this part of you in, and place him/her on center stage. Shine the spot light on her/him and give this part of yourself full reign to discuss all of the angers and frustrations about you. We accumulate these angers and criticisms over lifetimes from ourselves, our parents, our ancestors and collective humanity. Most of them are not ours to own. I’m not saying that perhaps we couldn’t have done better in certain situations. However, I also believe we do the best we can in most circumstance due to our consciousness level during those times. The beauty of life lies in falling down, experiencing bruises and then getting back up again and finally learning to ride that bike!!
We are here to eat chocolate ice cream and let it dribble down our faces. We are here to make mud pies, and draw pictures in the mud. We are here to roll in the sand, and jump in puddles!! We are here to laugh, cry, make mistakes and most of all to love! Not just love the part of our selves the inner critic thinks is lovable, because that won’t happen!! We are here to love every single cell of our being whether messy or not!!
Namaste,
Rosemary Veilleux