Dear Friends,
My father passed away this year on Memorial Day. It is still hard to believe he is no longer in his physical body. The physical part of me misses my father very much. Recently I received my new “Birds and Bloom Magazine” and on the address label, was stated “Gift from Alfred J. Veilleux”, my dad. He had been subscribing for this magazine for me for several years. We loved to talk about it the minute we received it, commenting on the beautiful cover page and different articles about birds and flowers shown and discussed within it. So when I received this last one and saw the label, I felt deeply sad that we would no longer be conversing about this special magazine and our shared love of birds.
The spiritual side of me is at peace with my dad’s crossing over. Luckily I had no regrets regarding our relationship from my end of things. I had said what needed to be said over the years, both the positive and challenging things about our relationship. I also was able to spend 9 days with him before he made his transition, taking care of him, holding his hand, and listening to his prayers. This was a very intimate time that I am deeply grateful for having with my dad.
The other reason why I am at peace with his transition is that I feel his presence very strongly. It is interesting though, for a while, I was having a hard time hearing him. I could “feel” him and almost felt like I could hear him breathing in my ear. I knew he wanted to talk to me but I was having a hard time listening as I didn’t trust what I was receiving from him. At times, when I have a session with a client, a loved one from the other side will come through. I have no problem during those times in trusting the information I get for other people. But when it came to my dad, I believe I had too much attachment to hearing him.
This changed a couple weeks ago. Sometimes we have to literally get knocked on our “butts” so to speak to make us pay attention to what is going on. In my case, I spider bite to my head, right in the area where information from the spirit world comes to me, jolted me into awareness. I was forced to be quiet while dealing with the side effects from the bite. And because of where the spider bite was, I knew, on a deep level there was something from the higher realms I was not paying attention to. I knew immediately it was my dad who wanted to communicate with me. I knew spirit used the spider to get my attention.
Spiders to me are about creativity. They spin the web of life. In this case, the message was for me to pay attention to the web of my relationship with my father. It had not ended, just transitioned to a deeper level of communication. I spent the whole weekend as I was healing from the spider bite, talking and listening to my dad. I no longer had any resistance and I was trusting everything I was getting from him. He encouraged me to open up more about my gifts of talking with spirit and loved ones on the other side. He told me he had much fear while he was on this earth and he knew his fear had affected me quite a bit. He was very sorry for this and wanted me to move beyond the fears he had in terms of embracing his gifts and encouraged me to be more honest about sharing mine with the world.
My dad transitioned quickly to his new life. During the last months and hours of his life, his heart opened and he was able to share from this place with his loved ones. We are all very grateful for this experience with him. I think because of this, and because of his deep spiritual faith, he stepped into his new spirit body easily. When I asked him what it was like on the other side he said “supah! That is “super” with a Maine accent! He still has his sense of humor. He is having fun and learning that the judgements he had on this earth limited him. He is now enjoying a much more expanded version of himself. His love for me and my family is deep and I feel for the first time, that he is loving himself fully, which is so heartwarming to me now. I told him that the thing I missed about him most was his sense of humor. He promises me that I will continue to experience that side of him. I am looking forward to our continued “play” with each other and how this will manifest.
I am sharing this with all of you to encourage you to pay attention when you feel a loved one around you. Do not worry about “getting the information wrong”. Listen from your heart, and you will know intuitively what the message is about that your loved one is sharing with you. The veil is getting thinner between the physical and spiritual realms. Our loved ones on the other side are so wanting us to know that “all is well”, and that they are still very much alive!
With love and respect, Rosemary Veilleux